A year ago today Jason had surgery to remove two cancerous tumors, today he's still cancer free!! He's cleared the biggest milestone, the year mark. I can't believe a year has passed already, I can still remember that day he told me the news. It seems just like yesterday. Oddly, during that time I found myself being able to keep it together, and I didn't really let it tear me down. I think I just wanted to push on and help Jason beat this. But today, I think I've cried more than I did then. I can't help it, I'm happy for today and at times it trips me up to think that he really did have cancer.
All in all I'm thankful, so thankful for this day and looking forward to Jason hitting that two year mark next year!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Monday, September 08, 2008
This time 3 years ago....
I had just arrived at the hospital for my scheduled induction. Little did I know then that I would be there for the next 20 some hours still waiting for Jenna. Now that I think of it, maybe this is why I had such a hard time sleeping last night. Because the night before my induction I didn't sleep much either!
Wow!!! Three years?? Really, I know its so cliche to ask "where does the time go"? But seriously, where did it go? Three years ago I lay there in my hospital bed, excited, nervous and overjoyed knowing that my little girl would be in my arms soon. Today I look at her and see this sweet, smart, loving and passionate beautiful girl. I am so blessed! SO blessed! She truly fills my heart with so much love and laughter. No matter what is going on in my life I can count on her to make me forget it all and brush it off. Nothing else matters, through her I've learned to be carefree and look at each day as something new, a bright new beginning. I wish I could bottle up her innocence and passion.
Thinking back to three years ago I see now how different my life is today. And I love it. I love my family, the three of us together are a perfect fit!
So what is Jenna doing now? Well for starters, she knows the 12 months of the year, the days of the week and the seasons! We just found this out this weekend as she decided to start spouting out this new found knowledge. I was so tickled each time she would go through her months or the days of the week. Its like she had been doing it forever and decided now to share it with us LOL.
Jenna loves to sing, in fact she sings all the time. She makes up her own tunes, sings to the pets, its adorable! Just yesterday she was sitting in my lap and turned to me. She took my face in her hands and in her own made up tune sang, "I love you mommy, you so beautiful" TEAR JERKER!! I told her right then and there she could get a pony for her birthday!
I can't wait for her birthday tomorrow (no she's not getting a pony), but I am taking her to the National Zoo! It will be her first train (aka metro) ride and first trip to the zoo. Its going to perfect!! Well as long as the rain stays away!
Wow!!! Three years?? Really, I know its so cliche to ask "where does the time go"? But seriously, where did it go? Three years ago I lay there in my hospital bed, excited, nervous and overjoyed knowing that my little girl would be in my arms soon. Today I look at her and see this sweet, smart, loving and passionate beautiful girl. I am so blessed! SO blessed! She truly fills my heart with so much love and laughter. No matter what is going on in my life I can count on her to make me forget it all and brush it off. Nothing else matters, through her I've learned to be carefree and look at each day as something new, a bright new beginning. I wish I could bottle up her innocence and passion.
Thinking back to three years ago I see now how different my life is today. And I love it. I love my family, the three of us together are a perfect fit!
So what is Jenna doing now? Well for starters, she knows the 12 months of the year, the days of the week and the seasons! We just found this out this weekend as she decided to start spouting out this new found knowledge. I was so tickled each time she would go through her months or the days of the week. Its like she had been doing it forever and decided now to share it with us LOL.
Jenna loves to sing, in fact she sings all the time. She makes up her own tunes, sings to the pets, its adorable! Just yesterday she was sitting in my lap and turned to me. She took my face in her hands and in her own made up tune sang, "I love you mommy, you so beautiful" TEAR JERKER!! I told her right then and there she could get a pony for her birthday!
I can't wait for her birthday tomorrow (no she's not getting a pony), but I am taking her to the National Zoo! It will be her first train (aka metro) ride and first trip to the zoo. Its going to perfect!! Well as long as the rain stays away!
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Mary and Jesus
Monday morning as Jenna and I were walking out to the car to go to school she stops and yells "Look mommy!!! Mary and Jesus!!" Thinking maybe I didn't hear her all that well I asked her what she saw. "I see Mary and Jesus" A few hairs start to stand up on my arms and neck at this point. So I asked her where she saw them, hoping maybe she would point to the sky and say heaven. "Mommy, over there in the trees" I'm telling you, she was speaking with such passion and conviction, like she knew what she was talking about. Talk about your Sixth Sense "I see dead people" kind of freaky!
It does make me happy to know that she's learning who Mary and Jesus, and other important people from the Bible. She loves to listen to the Bible stories we read at nights and is now fascinated with the concept of Jesus being in her heart. Although she may tell you that Jesus is in her belly :) Her favorite story by far is Jonah and the Whale or better known as "Donut" by Jenna LOL She knows it quite well, knows that the whale is sent to eat Jonah because he didn't listen to God. I must admit that I've used this story to my advantage and have had the following conversation with Jenna a few times now.
Me: Jenna its time to pick up your toys
Jenna: No mommy I don't want to
Me: I know you don't want to but its time to clean up
Jenna: No you pick up mommy
Me: Jenna, I don't like when you don't listen to mommy
Jenna: (silence, continues to ignore me at this point)
Me: Do you remember what happened to Jonah when he didn't listen to God?
Jenna: (eyes grow wide as she recalls the story) Whale ate him mommmy?
Me: That's right, so don't you want to listen to mommy now?
Jenna: I don't want whale eat me! (and off goes my child to pick up her toys)
Yeah, not the greatest way to get my child to listen, but hey she's learning the concept of actions and consequences.
It does make me happy to know that she's learning who Mary and Jesus, and other important people from the Bible. She loves to listen to the Bible stories we read at nights and is now fascinated with the concept of Jesus being in her heart. Although she may tell you that Jesus is in her belly :) Her favorite story by far is Jonah and the Whale or better known as "Donut" by Jenna LOL She knows it quite well, knows that the whale is sent to eat Jonah because he didn't listen to God. I must admit that I've used this story to my advantage and have had the following conversation with Jenna a few times now.
Me: Jenna its time to pick up your toys
Jenna: No mommy I don't want to
Me: I know you don't want to but its time to clean up
Jenna: No you pick up mommy
Me: Jenna, I don't like when you don't listen to mommy
Jenna: (silence, continues to ignore me at this point)
Me: Do you remember what happened to Jonah when he didn't listen to God?
Jenna: (eyes grow wide as she recalls the story) Whale ate him mommmy?
Me: That's right, so don't you want to listen to mommy now?
Jenna: I don't want whale eat me! (and off goes my child to pick up her toys)
Yeah, not the greatest way to get my child to listen, but hey she's learning the concept of actions and consequences.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Random updates
I just plain forget sometimes to blog. I get busy at work (which is sometimes the only chance I get to hop online and do this) and then by the time I get home I don't want to get on the computer. So now I have to subject myself to try and recall all that has been going on in our lives.
Jenna
Jenna is pretty much 100% daytime potty trained!! There has been the occasional accident, but that's usually due to mommy or daddy's error! Example: Just as it is with anything new, Jenna is obsessed with using the potty while we're out and about. Its come to us having to call her bluff though because sometimes I take her and she doesn't really need to go, but still you can never be too sure! While at Costco one Saturday, we had barely stepped inside when Jenna announces that she has to potty. Of course she does, she's never gone in the Costco potty!!! But, she had just gone potty before we left the house and hadn't had anything to drink. So I told her to wait until we were ready to leave. Yeah that was a mistake! 5 minutes later while I was looking at something on the shelf I hear Jason say "oh no, Jenn she peed in the cart." I couldn't get upset with Jenna, she told me she had to go, this was totally my fault! And I swear she did it to prove a point. I could see from the look on her face that she wanted to say "So there mommy, I bet you won't tell me to wait anymore. And to make it worse you now have to return the cart with pee on the seat to customer service to make sure they clean it, and walk out of Costco carrying my soaked little hiney." Yes dear, lesson learned! Other than the fixation with public potties, this has just been a wonderful new stage!
Quick picture share: I looked at this picture and for the first time really saw a lot of me in Jenna. I often can't get past her blue eyes and blonde hair, but when I see this smile I can now see she really is my little girl. This was taken by my mother in law last weekend when Jenna spent a few nights with them.
Jason
I know some of you ask me about Jason and I've been really bad about updating on him. He's wonderful! Still cancer free and healthy as ever. He is super annoying at times, but hey I'll take it LOL. He's going today for another check up and X-rays. He goes about every other month for testing and scanning. To be honest, I hate it. We get such a long break in between check ups that we almost forget about it all. Then as the appointments approach we're foced back into this world of wait and worry. I know in my heart though that everything is ok, that's what we have to fall back on!
Jenn
I really don't want to update on me. I've been struggling a lot lately with my weight. And it all came to a head last week when I went to the doctor's and stepped on the scale. I wanted to die!! I knew I had gained a lot of the weight back that I lost last year (45.5lbs). Stress and holiday's got the best of me, and I've never quite balanced the work and exercise schedule (I had lost most of that weight while being a SAHM). So there I am at the doctor's office and I swear the whole world fell silent as the nurse revealed quite loudly what my weight was. My hear sunk, I'm utterly disappointed in myself. How could I go from being so gung ho and commited to a diet and workout plan, to struggling daily with tempations and not wanting to workout??? Of the 45.5lbs I lost, 34lbs have crept back on. Disgusting, totally disgusting. So here I go again. I can't go back to my OBGYN for my annual appointment in October weighing 34lbs heavier. I have to bust my butt to lose at leaset 20 before then. I've been using my smoke breaks to walk on the treadmill at work (if smokers can get 15 mins to smoke twice a day, why can't I use that to put in 30 mins of walking?) Then I've been going on hour long walks with Jenna with a trip to the park in the evenings. Its a start until I can figure out what exercise plan I want to stick with.
That's all for now, I really should be doing some work today. But its Friday, does anyone really work on Fridays??
Jenna
Jenna is pretty much 100% daytime potty trained!! There has been the occasional accident, but that's usually due to mommy or daddy's error! Example: Just as it is with anything new, Jenna is obsessed with using the potty while we're out and about. Its come to us having to call her bluff though because sometimes I take her and she doesn't really need to go, but still you can never be too sure! While at Costco one Saturday, we had barely stepped inside when Jenna announces that she has to potty. Of course she does, she's never gone in the Costco potty!!! But, she had just gone potty before we left the house and hadn't had anything to drink. So I told her to wait until we were ready to leave. Yeah that was a mistake! 5 minutes later while I was looking at something on the shelf I hear Jason say "oh no, Jenn she peed in the cart." I couldn't get upset with Jenna, she told me she had to go, this was totally my fault! And I swear she did it to prove a point. I could see from the look on her face that she wanted to say "So there mommy, I bet you won't tell me to wait anymore. And to make it worse you now have to return the cart with pee on the seat to customer service to make sure they clean it, and walk out of Costco carrying my soaked little hiney." Yes dear, lesson learned! Other than the fixation with public potties, this has just been a wonderful new stage!
Quick picture share: I looked at this picture and for the first time really saw a lot of me in Jenna. I often can't get past her blue eyes and blonde hair, but when I see this smile I can now see she really is my little girl. This was taken by my mother in law last weekend when Jenna spent a few nights with them.
Jason
I know some of you ask me about Jason and I've been really bad about updating on him. He's wonderful! Still cancer free and healthy as ever. He is super annoying at times, but hey I'll take it LOL. He's going today for another check up and X-rays. He goes about every other month for testing and scanning. To be honest, I hate it. We get such a long break in between check ups that we almost forget about it all. Then as the appointments approach we're foced back into this world of wait and worry. I know in my heart though that everything is ok, that's what we have to fall back on!
Jenn
I really don't want to update on me. I've been struggling a lot lately with my weight. And it all came to a head last week when I went to the doctor's and stepped on the scale. I wanted to die!! I knew I had gained a lot of the weight back that I lost last year (45.5lbs). Stress and holiday's got the best of me, and I've never quite balanced the work and exercise schedule (I had lost most of that weight while being a SAHM). So there I am at the doctor's office and I swear the whole world fell silent as the nurse revealed quite loudly what my weight was. My hear sunk, I'm utterly disappointed in myself. How could I go from being so gung ho and commited to a diet and workout plan, to struggling daily with tempations and not wanting to workout??? Of the 45.5lbs I lost, 34lbs have crept back on. Disgusting, totally disgusting. So here I go again. I can't go back to my OBGYN for my annual appointment in October weighing 34lbs heavier. I have to bust my butt to lose at leaset 20 before then. I've been using my smoke breaks to walk on the treadmill at work (if smokers can get 15 mins to smoke twice a day, why can't I use that to put in 30 mins of walking?) Then I've been going on hour long walks with Jenna with a trip to the park in the evenings. Its a start until I can figure out what exercise plan I want to stick with.
That's all for now, I really should be doing some work today. But its Friday, does anyone really work on Fridays??
Thursday, May 22, 2008
My Dearest Jenna
This is to inform you that waking up before the sun is even out is not acceptable. 5 in the morning is way too early for a little girl like you to be up. Not only do you need your sleep to grow and stay healthy, but mommy and daddy don't function that early in the morning. You know how you called me grumpy when we got up at 5 this morning? Well that's because I don't know how to be happy so early in the moring. So if you would like to avoid dealing with a grumpy mommy, please stay asleep till about 6:30 during the week! And if you really want to score brownie points with mommy and daddy, sleep till 7 or 8 on the weekend!! Maybe daddy will buy you a pony? :)
In conclusion, the only people who have any business being up so early are garbage collectors, farmers, newspaper delivery boys and grandparents. And you my dear child are none of those.
In conclusion, the only people who have any business being up so early are garbage collectors, farmers, newspaper delivery boys and grandparents. And you my dear child are none of those.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Attention Jillian Michaels
#1 your workout The Thirty Day Shred is pretty tight! I'm beginning to discover muscles that I didn't know I had.
#2 screw you! That's what I kept saying last night as you would repeat over and over "Come on, all I ask is for 20 minutes a day. You can't take a break in a 20 minute workout and still expect resuklts. You see these abs?? They don't come for free."
How dare you push me to the brink of shear exhaustion. How dare you tell me to not stop when I felt like I couldn't do one more crunch (by the way, how do you know I stopped for like 5 seconds to try and recover??). But thank you, even though you're not actually in my living room in person kicking my ass into shape, seeing your work on the Biggest Loser and now in this DVD has truly motivated me to get back on track with my weight loss.
Any of you out there want to check this DVD out? Here it is: 30 DAY SHRED
#2 screw you! That's what I kept saying last night as you would repeat over and over "Come on, all I ask is for 20 minutes a day. You can't take a break in a 20 minute workout and still expect resuklts. You see these abs?? They don't come for free."
How dare you push me to the brink of shear exhaustion. How dare you tell me to not stop when I felt like I couldn't do one more crunch (by the way, how do you know I stopped for like 5 seconds to try and recover??). But thank you, even though you're not actually in my living room in person kicking my ass into shape, seeing your work on the Biggest Loser and now in this DVD has truly motivated me to get back on track with my weight loss.
Any of you out there want to check this DVD out? Here it is: 30 DAY SHRED
Saturday, May 10, 2008
One more post...
I don't usually post this much in a whole week, let alone a day. But I have a lot to say :) For one, today, Saturday May 10, 2008 is my official quit date. I quit smoking! I decided to try Chantix once I realized that smoking wasn't something I could just turn on and off when I want. As much as I hate to admit it, I was addicted to smoking. It became such a habit for me and I could actually tell you exactly when I smoked during the day.
So enough is enough...I started Chantix last week. They encourage you to set your quit date about a week after you start the meds, and that if you feel the need to smoke during that first week its ok. And I did just that, but I found that I didn't smoke as much or felt the need to smoke. Today was my first day totally cig free!! I think I can do this...no I know I can do this because I actually want to.
In other news, I started a new workout routine. Jillian Michaels from Biggest Loser has a DVD out and it will kick your butt!! I started that last week and I'm already down 4lbs! WOOP WOOP :)
It's been a great week, no more smoking, I'm working out again and I don't have to buy diapers for my kid anymore. What a great life ;)
So enough is enough...I started Chantix last week. They encourage you to set your quit date about a week after you start the meds, and that if you feel the need to smoke during that first week its ok. And I did just that, but I found that I didn't smoke as much or felt the need to smoke. Today was my first day totally cig free!! I think I can do this...no I know I can do this because I actually want to.
In other news, I started a new workout routine. Jillian Michaels from Biggest Loser has a DVD out and it will kick your butt!! I started that last week and I'm already down 4lbs! WOOP WOOP :)
It's been a great week, no more smoking, I'm working out again and I don't have to buy diapers for my kid anymore. What a great life ;)
Elmo = rockstar to toddlers
You've seen the scenes of girls going crazy, in tears and screaming when some hot celebrity comes into view or takes the stage. Well that was my little one today...well minus the tears :) We went to Sesame Street Live today and I'll just say it was worth every penny, including the almost 1.5 hours to drive there. I actually enjoyed the show just as much as Jenna did, we were both singing along and dancing, it was awesome! So here is the money shot as I have been calling it all day. I had the camera up and running ready to capture this moment...Elmo taking the stage.
Mother's Day
I got my first "cheesy" Mother's Day necklace on Friday. You know, the big tube shaped noodles, painted and threaded on a piece of yarn? My heart just melted when I walked in to pick up Jenna on Friday. It was like she was waiting all day to give me my present that she worked so hard on because she ran to me full force like a train and handed me my necklace. I was honestly so touched to get this, knowing that her little fingers so skillfully crafted this masterpiece! :)
She also made me a picture frame out of popsicle sticks! Yes I'm loving these handcrafted gifts! I'm going to be one of those moms who keeps pretty much all of my child's artwork :) So if this is all I get for Mother's Day that's fine by me. But Jason if you had planned on presenting me something that comes in one of them pretty blue boxes..I certainly won't turn that down :)
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